Mirror Reflections

Today at the gym I finally broke 20:00 for a mile... woo hoo, who knew I'd ever be celebrating finally being able to walk faster than 3 miles per hour?!! Its true though... its taken me a couple months!

I am still dealing with scar tissue, adhesions from the C-section and can't lift heavy weights yet.. ...

Even though I am doing weight watchers and working hard to regain my fitness I still can't stand how I look in the mirror... and I think it takes TREMENDOUS courage to just walk in a gym when you feel like you don't belong with all the other really skinny people who are there.

I was able to wax my floors at home on my hands and knees and do housework. I am able to stay awake till 9:00 PM - sometimes later now.

I know mentally half the battle is not caring what anyone but yourself thinks... but what if myself isn't sure I can do this???

I am able to carry my 15 lb+ son around without my back and arms aching.

SO I know this is only one sta